Letting Go

Found in an old document from about 8 years ago. I think most-if not all- of it was copied from something else. Can't remember. I remember tweaking it a bit to fit me for some reason. This was right after my friend Kourtni passed away after collapsing during off-season basketball practice freshman year of high school.

"Letting Go"

If I knew it would be the last time hat I'd see you fall asleep,

I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door,

I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,

I would video tape each action and word, so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time, I could spare an extra minute to stop and say "I love you,"

Instead of assuming you know I do.

If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day,

Well I'm sure you'll have so many more, so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow to make up for an oversight,

And we always get a second chance to make everything just right.

There will always be another day to say "I love you,"

But it seems others just don’t understand it like I do.

If I had just one more day, I would hold you forever

Instead of sitting here, lonely, enduring this disaster.

If I knew I wouldn’t again get to see your smile

I’d run in sadness, sadness that lasts a mile

If I knew I wouldn’t get to see you tomorrow

I wouldn’t avoid it, for you cannot hide from sorrow

Even though this setting made me feel extremely odd
I had to let go and just LET GOD.